What I feel

 Have you ever been in that position where you're so confused. You don't know what you're doing or how to feel. Your emotions are a jumbled mess and you're like a walking shemozzle. You feel like your mind is playing a Kind of shenanigan on you. It's like a hazy dream that you wish to make sense of but you just can't. That's how I feel right now, the exact opposite of how I used to feel. Back then, I knew what I wanted and I was happy, I had a goal, I had a dream, I was in charge until reality slapped me in the face and showed me that life wasn't as perfect as I thought. 

       From then on, my life went down the drain. People I trusted turned to be well... Their real selves, bad things happened, truths were revealed but to think after all these I'm now happy, well, my answer is NO! I'm still not happy because the more I think I have answers, the more I get confused. 

        Life is really good at throwing things at people, bad things but like they say "Life is full of ups and downs and if life hasn't thrown things your way then you haven't really lived life ". At a point, the things it throws get frustrating, driving one to a crazy end, where you'll feel like scratching your brain out. It gets tiring, really exhausting. I'm tired, I'm stressed, fatigued even. Everything happening is just so overwhelming. 

        Have you ever craved happiness so much that even if it's just for a few minutes? Cause I do right now. I crave peace from the world and happiness from my life but good things don't come easy. Do they? 

        Now I'm trapped in a ball of raging emotions, connected to my past and present at the same time making me scared of my tomorrow but I know I gotta stay strong. I'll live and I'll be happy... One day... Just one day everything will be over and this hopeless situation will be a story to tell others, then, I'll be able to look back and smile. 

          You reading this probably have something going on for you. The question for you is "What do you feel? "one advice for you is to write down your emotions and frustrations or share it with me like I'm sharing mine with you right now. 

         Life ain't gonna be easy all the time but please stay strong and never give up, one day I believe that this hazy cloud I'm floating in will be clear again and once again I'll be in control. But really WHAT DO YOU FEEL? 

                                          ♥Annie~bee.